Thursday, January 29, 2009

Now I know my ABC's

I want a Polaroid Camera

I really wish for a Polaroid camera, but for now I'd settle for this t-shirt!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Sea of opportunities

OK, so now that I am home and substitute teaching in C-town {where word travels fast} I have been asked by several people what I want to do once I graduate. Understandably they figure I am in school for teaching, which then to their surprise I'm not. I then get this confused look on their faces and the question "well then {pause}, why are you substitute teaching? Wouldn't you rather get a job pertaining to your major?" I pause and smile {to make it seem like I know what I'm about to say} and then usually respond by saying "Well my major may be business but I have put a lot of thought into getting my masters in education and using the math background I was given by majoring in Business and teach middle school Math, plus I love working with kids." TA DA! This usually makes them smile and leave me alone. Well done.

The truth is I have no idea what I want to do once I graduate. But I don't really wanna worry about that right now. All I know is I have dreams and aspirations and I wish to accomplish them all. Here are just a few {in no particular order} live in NYC, own a hotel, be a teacher, raise a family, get married, be happy, travel, own a vacation home, etc.

So now the picture, I found it on and immediately loved it. I feel as though sometimes I can relate to it with some aspects of my life. I see the great big world of opportunity out there, but I'm scared, I would rather just kinda hang out in the environment I am most comfortable in. Someday I will be out there in the big open sea with the rest of the fishies, but for now, until i decide where I am going and what I will be doing, I am comfortable with just doing what I know.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Love my littlest Sister

Maggie has now joined with her two other sisters sarah, and liz to donate her hair for locks of love. She is the bravest little girl and I love her so much! Here are some pictures of my little sister Maggie getting her braid cut off!
I love love love her new do! Hugs and kisses Mag xoxo

I neeeeed to see this

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Be a Lamp

So its official, I start subbing tomorrow! I am super excited. I subbed a bit last year in May when I had returned from school. I was mostly positioned at the middle school with a few times at the elementary schools. I must say I LOVED the middle school {yes, they are at that incredibly awkward age where they think they know everything, but I found it so fun}.

So tomorrow I am subbing in for the middle school gym teacher hahaha. I get to wear sneakers and spandex {love spandex}. I also love that I get to dress comfortably while playing games all day and getting paid to do so. Super cool.

OH and more good news! I was offered a senior counselor position at the camp I have been working at for the past four summers. A senior position is a pretty big deal! You are in charge of at least 18 girls, 3 junior counselors, 2 senior cit's, and 2 cit's. Thats a lot of girls! I must admit I was super excited when I found out about that as well. The only things holding me back are the pay {its not that great, I really go back every year because of the fun staff and I love camp}, and also I need to stat looking for somewhere to live next year while at school and most of the rents I've seen begin in the summer. Anyhoo, I am gonna sleep on that for a few days before I make a decision. I won't let it stress me out.

Gosh, I get sooo excited when it comes to subbing and camp, its a really good thing I went to school for education right??? But really, I can always go back and get my masters in education after getting this Business degree.

Ok, so this picture I came across on holga tumblr and I really liked it. I think I try to live my life according to this picture {well, I try at least}. I love to help people. :)

Just let it go and enjoy the show!


Keep Warm

I really do miss the amount of heat that was always pumping through new hall {I was able to prance around in shorts and a t-shirt}. Here at home, the heat sadly does not rise about 60 degrees.

I find myself bundled in several layers throughout the day and even wrapped in scarves while sleeping.

I came across this picture on, its a tree with a lovely sweater! Love it. Who says trees don't get cold?

I promise

Oh love... very precious

Wednesday, January 21, 2009


So I am currently in the middle of reading three books, On the Road, Jane Eyre, and Naked. All three are pretty great and I really like them.

Now speaking of books, just a few minutes ago I looked up all of my business textbooks I will be needing for this semester {my mouth dropped open wide when I saw how much money I would be spending}. So far, it is a total of 465 dollars for Marketing Management, Business Management, and Advertising! I don't even know how much my accounting book is yet!

Ew. Gross. I really wish I was still working at the library so that I could take a textbook out for the full semester {totally not allowed} and just keep renewing it without anyone noticing. Also, I always had first dibs on books left on reserve... and I KNOW my accounting book is on reserve... damn

It doesn't help that I am currently broke and have yet to be called to sub. But, I must say I do thoroughly enjoy my relaxing days that consist of starbucks, magazines, tea, and online homework. {If I don't get a job though my mom wants me to work at the hospital with her}. I love my mom, shes great, we are close. But I don't think if I could handle 24/7 momma g time.

Anyhoo I found this picture on {i know, I have an addiction to the pictures of art} and I loved it. I love books, I love reading {nerd I know} but I just can't help it. I have started to collect all the books I have and I plan on buying a cute bookcase to put them all in. I cant wait! {again, nerd, I know}

The only people for me

"...the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..."

This freaks me out!

Look at this picture... doesn't it look like the ovals are moving?? Ok, then make your eyes completely still and focus in one one oval... Its not moving! I literally stared at this picture for so long trying to figure it out.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Dinner at home

For Dinner. Sliced celery sticks with hummus and a handful of mixed nuts for dessert.... Oh and a few cups of green tea.....

Can somebody please get me a burger?!?!

I love to laugh long and loud and clear

A few good pictures {that make me laugh} I came across on either or holga tumblr...oh wait that last one is ze sister that she deleted off of facebook {not before I saved it to my computer}... it makes me laugh soo hard it literally hurts

P.S name the movie from which I took the title of this post from


Be nice to gingers, they usually grow up having an incredibly awkward childhood.
I would know

President Obama!

So I just finished watching the inauguration and I must say it was pretty amazing!

I wish I could have been there with the millions of other patriotic Americans {including my sister} just to experience the energy. But sitting at home with a nice cup of tea and my warm blanket was kind of exciting as well.

I found Obama's eighteen minute speech to be inspiring, and even found myself getting a tad bit emotional during the singing of the national anthem! {what a softy}

Anyhoo I got all my classes straightened away today, very accomplishing. Now I just have to figure out my bedroom situation because my room is currently being used for storage and laundry and I am forced to sleep on the couch.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

an online ramble

Sooo this semester I will officially be an online student. My classes will all be taken online and I will be living at home.

I will miss being on campus with the rest of the fighting owls {yes, our mascot is the fighting owls}. But I will have the opportunity to work during the day and make some money. {I am currently worth nothing}.

Anyhoo I saw this picture on and immediately started laughing, I literally couldn't breathe! I think Nester {the official fighting owl} is sad to see me go.

Some of the things I will be missing are my intramural soccer team that I have been on with the same girls since freshman year, coed softball with my bests, performing in Vagina Monologues with DANGAA, being the business manager of the paper, Tuesdays at Tommy D's, running back and forth across the hall to the guys apt, senate banquet {but don't worry, I'm going as someones date}, and i suppose working at the Library....

Of course I will be on campus now and again to meet with my professors for the online classes once a month I think it is, buy books, and to obviously visit and hang out with my bests.

I plan on being a Substitute teacher! I am really excited....its a good thing I am going to school for business management right?? haha

Anyhoo I am off to run errands with my sister before I drive her back to campus tomorrow

ta ta for now :)

Saturday, January 17, 2009


If I had seen this man I would have given him the 98cents. Doesn't he look like hes telling the truth?


Change. Its all we really hear about these days. Especially with president elect Obama about to be sworn in this coming week. I myself am pretty excited to see all these new changes promised, and look forward to the future!

Friday, January 16, 2009

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Ahhhh-Ahhh, the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oh, I'm finding
That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside
You're my protection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence..
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
'Cause I won't remember, save your breath 'cause what's the use?

Ahhhh-Ahhh, the night is calling
And it whispers to me softly, "come and play"
I am falling
And if I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down,
Spinnin' round, spinnin' round, spinnin' round
Looking for myself,
Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down,
Spinnin' round, spinnin' round, spinnin' round
Looking for myself,

When it's good, then it's good
It's all good 'till it goes bad
'Till you try to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again!
Broken down in agony
Just trying to find a friend


I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?


I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party's over?
Why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Some things are not Important

I think I have an issue with caring too much about certain things that really end up causing more stress in my life. I take a lot of time worrying about others and whats going on in their lives rather than focusing on myself.

My sister never fails to remind me that I worry waaaay to much about pointless things. She simply makes a crinkled face whenever I ask her what shes doing or where shes going or what shes making, and then draws out my name with a little frustration behind it.... for example.. Caaaatherrrinnneee ugghhh. And then I remember I need to relax and worry about myself. But I just can't help it. I have an urge to simply know everything. Maybe you could call it curiosity? My mother calls it being super nosy. But I don't do it on purpose, promise!

Another thing I think I spend to much time on is what people think about me. I have recently come to accept the fact that I am a proud person... buut I would like to be able go on without constantly worrying what others think of me. I put immense amounts of pressure on myself in situations to make sure my integrity is in tact. Frustrating i know... anyhoo these pictures are again from till next time

Thursday, January 15, 2009

The future?

I love this picture.... of course I came across it on In most circumstances I would totally agree with this, because over thinking everything I do is something I suffer from {yes, over thinking situations makes you suffer}. But right now, or recently, I am more worried about what is going to happen tomorrow.

Of course I know I will be around tomorrow, but I catch myself worrying way to much about the future. Even yesterday I was seriously considering changing majors! I should be graduating in the near future and I was thinking of changing from business to nursing!!! Its not even like I would have many classes that would transfer.... aka I would be in school for probably another two or three years, unless I took part in an accelerated course. AND then there is another part of me that wants to be a teacher, but holly insists I get my bachelors in business at westfield {yuck} and then just get my masters in education.

AND LASTLY there is that huge part of me that wants to live the next year of my life in a Kerouac style and work my butt off for a few months and then travel the US! There is so much I have never seen or experienced, and I am itching to get out there! {again, I blame colby for suggesting On the Road by Jack Kerouac, because the blame has to be put somewhere right?} haha

So for now I leave you with my thoughts being a little lost and confused. Ultimately I am completely unsure about the future and what it will bring!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

OK so I was going to post today about the book I am reading. The book is called On the Road. And right before I signed into my blog, I decided I would check to see what my sisters blog was about today {just curious}. To my freekin surprise she posted about the book I am reading! She quoted one of the greatest quotes in the book aaaand basically stole my idea... and shes not even reading it! How rude!

Anyhoo you should totally check out On the Road. I was hesitant at first when Colby suggested it, because I had read several reviews and they were all a mix. But the book is amazing and incredibly inspiring!

I guess you could say it is kind of a dangerous book for me to read, because all I want to do now is hit the road and explore! Why am I sitting here?!?! Why aren't I out exploring the world!

So for now I would have liked to leave you with my fave quote from the book, but it looks like my sister has that covered. Instead I will leave you with the suggestion to really let yourself go and read the book. It truly is life changing!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Something has come up and I am feeling the need to post something as profound as this picture I came across on

Looking at the picture in a "deep" way, I can say I can relate to it. You never really appreciate anything until it is gone. You constantly abuse what ever the situation may be, until one day, it leaves you high and dry.

Crying wont get you anywhere {although a good cry feels daaaamn good sometimes}.

This is just a bunch of rambles, but thats really all my head is full of right now. Mumble jumble that I can't even recognize, let alone organize.

Until tomorrow I suppose....

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

A photo taken in NYC {aka my future home} simply stating I dream of Love. I came across it on, a blog where people post interesting pictures of art they have found on the internet. I can literally sit on the computer for hours browsing the hundreds of beautiful and interesting pictures that are there! I have even started saving the pictures to my computer so that I can go back and look at the ones that really caught my eye, like this one.

Ok, so I was talking to a friend yesterday about our new years resolutions and his is to simply find a girlfriend. It made me think, gee I would love to find a boyfriend for my new years resolution, but then again what if the "man of my dreams" isn't supposed to come into my life until later? Would I be putting unfair amounts of pressure on myself to constantly be on the look out? Or, should I choose the same new years resolution as my friend, and say, I am in pursuit of a boyfriend in the year 2009? I could look at it from The Secrets point of view and say I am summoning the love of my life by using the law of attraction {because I am a semi believer in the secret}.

Anyhoo I feel as though that is to much thought to be put into a new years resolutuon, but then again it could just be because my mind is on constant over drive and I over think every possible thought or idea. So, for now I am going to stick to my vision board and work on bettering myself in the new year, and maybe, just maybe, the man of my dreams will meet the bettered version of me and fall in love.

BUT for now, I will just keep dreaming. :)

Monday, January 5, 2009

I came across this image on and I loved it. Especially because I am headed for the nations capitol this week.

My two sisters and I are being spontaneous and taking a cheap flight down to explore the many (free) museums that are offered, while squatting at our aunts house in VA.

The Obama's are also already in town! How amazing would it be if I just happened to run into them {obviously thats not going to happen considering hes being inaugurated next week and the amount of secret service that will be around} but I'm just saying... that would be pretty cool!

I am just excited to really explore the nations Capital on my own. I have been there a few times in the past with family and then once with the standard middle school trip.

This trip is spontaneous and adventurous... two things on my vision board ;)

Shout out....loud

The New Year is HERE

This years Christmas was a sweet one. Filled with family, friends, delicious food, cheer, laughter, and love. AND we had a white Christmas! I really can't complain.
The New Year has also begun and I must say I have a really good feeling about it. I feel like a lot is going to change for the better, and I am ecstatic about it.
This year I have chosen to make a vision board instead of making one resolution and trying to stick to it. My Vision board is an Idea taken from the book The Secret. On this board are things I would like to accomplish over the next year. Each idea or activity pertains to a different part of my life.
The vision board will hang in my room where I will see it everyday and be reminded to Dance, Believe, beat stress, look Ravishing, feel sexy, dare to try, learn to cook, travel, take pictures, love, smile, laugh, read, beat the odds..... and sooo many more!
Because, I really can do whatever I want. And this year I plan on having fun, bettering myself, and doing the things I love <3

Everyone should make one!