Are you afraid of the dark?

I am scared of pretty much everything {that is if it catches me off guard, or I am alone in the dark}. I have been this way as long as I can remember. Like this one time when i was little, I was terrified of bees. I was outside watching my dad practice his golf swing {luckily he was doing so in front of the camera so he could see what he was doing wrong}. ANYWAYS while I was watching him swing the golf club, a bee flew straight at my head and got stuck in my hair. Now you can only imagine the terror that came across my face and screaming from my lungs. I was frantic, running back and forth in the yard screaming as if I were being murdered. My dad was chasing me to find out what was wrong, because how was he supposed to know there was a bee in my hair {keep in mind the camera is still rolling}. Finally the bee gets free and I go back to hanging out in the back yard.

The fear I experience is pretty intense and it is all in my head. For example, the dark. I dont like it. It scares me. Luckily when I come upstairs after watching TV at night there is a light switch at the bottom of the stairs that I turn on, when I get to the top there is a switch to turn the previous light off and another switch to turn the next one on. When I get to the top of the next flight of stairs there is a switch to turn the previous one off and another to turn the hall light on. When I get to the end of the hallway, I reach into my room and turn on my light, and then reach out into the hallway and turn that one off. LUCKILY I don't have to walk one step in the darkness UNTIL it is time for bed. At this point I turn off the light in the room and as quickly as I can jump into bed. I jump just in case there is something under my bed... crazy I know... but I am just making sure haha

So I am a scardy cat. I'm jumpy, if you pop out from behind a corner I will scream bloody murder. If you scare me in the dark, I might just pee my pants. You won't find me at a haunted mansion {the last two I went to, I never made it inside} or a scary movie. If my friends do convince me to see a scary movie you probably won't see my face because they will constantly be covered by my hands.

BOO.. image via ffffound

Sea of opportunities

OK, so now that I am home and substitute teaching in C-town {where word travels fast} I have been asked by several people what I want to do once I graduate. Understandably they figure I am in school for teaching, which then to their surprise I'm not. I then get this confused look on their faces and the question "well then {pause}, why are you substitute teaching? Wouldn't you rather get a job pertaining to your major?" I pause and smile {to make it seem like I know what I'm about to say} and then usually respond by saying "Well my major may be business but I have put a lot of thought into getting my masters in education and using the math background I was given by majoring in Business and teach middle school Math, plus I love working with kids." TA DA! This usually makes them smile and leave me alone. Well done.

The truth is I have no idea what I want to do once I graduate. But I don't really wanna worry about that right now. All I know is I have dreams and aspirations and I wish to accomplish them all. Here are just a few {in no particular order} live in NYC, own a hotel, be a teacher, raise a family, get married, be happy, travel, own a vacation home, etc.

So now the picture, I found it on ffffound.com and immediately loved it. I feel as though sometimes I can relate to it with some aspects of my life. I see the great big world of opportunity out there, but I'm scared, I would rather just kinda hang out in the environment I am most comfortable in. Someday I will be out there in the big open sea with the rest of the fishies, but for now, until i decide where I am going and what I will be doing, I am comfortable with just doing what I know.