Some are Silver, and the Others Gold

This past weekend I visited friends from school. The best is when it's like nothing has changed, or no time has passed. You still talk, laugh, and appreciate the friendship the same way. Because really, what has changed? Friends are Friends. Yes it takes an effort from both side, but what makes people give up on each other?

I guess you could say its something I think about often, probably too often. I hate when good fiends fight to the point of hatred. We are often stubborn when it comes to wanting to prove that we are right when you tell us we are wrong. And when you hurt us our initial want or reaction is to hurt you back. And who better to really hurt you, but a close friend who knows you, knows what gets under your skin? It sucks. It's also weird to think how close people can be at one point and how fast that friendship can be something of the past. What do I do now? Do I wait and see if they come around? Do I become persistent in finding out the real cause to these changes. I don't understand it. I am just going to leave it at... it saddens me to see some friends get up and walk away.

I am not claiming I am perfect here. I will be the first to tell you I'm not. I have just gotten to the point where I feel I am trying to hard. Putting too much of an effort into some sided friendships. You can't sit on a see saw with someone who expects you to do all the work. That just doesn't happen.

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I leave you with lyrics to the song Make New Friends. It has been stuck in my head all day. I would sing along to the lyrics when I was a kiddie, and it's interesting to go back and read the lyrics today. I see them differently than I did then.

Make new friends,
but keep the old.
One is silver,
the other is gold.

A circle is round,
it has no end.
That's how long,
I will be your friend.

A fire burns bright,
it warms the heart.
We've been friends,
from the very start.

You have one hand,
I have the other.
Put them together,
We have each other.

Silver is precious,
Gold is too.
I am precious,
and so are you.

You help me,
and I'll help you
and together
we will see it through.

The sky is blue
The Earth is green
I can help
to keep it clean

Across the land
Across the sea
Friends forever
We will always be

Things you look at Change

Thursday night is finally here. A night most college kids look forward to during the week. I myself used to look forward to Thursday nights, a chance to let go and break free from all the work and stress. But now that I am no longer living on campus Thursday nights are just one night closer to the weekend. Once I get home from work I'm exhausted, I will get some homework done before I am dragged to the gym by my super fitness mom {love her, just not her opinion of the gym}. I really would love a nap somewhere in there, but sometimes there just isn't enough time.

I do miss going out with everyone back at school, but I love where I am right now. Yes, I am still taking classes for a miserable major that I don't particularly like, but I am also subbing and doing other things that I enjoy. It has also been such an eye opening experience {living away from my friends} for a few different reasons. I feel I have time to breath. I have a history of taking on everyones problems and drama and making them my own. Don't get me wrong, I am always here to listen to a friend in need. The problem was I would begin to stress about these issues instead of lending an ear and simply giving advice. But, I am getting much better at this.

In the beginning I guess you could say I was smothering/stalking my friends. I had missed them dearly and did everything I could to keep in contact and updated in their lives. But it gets to a point where you realize how one sided some of these friendships really are. Of course there is the select handful that I would never second guess as a friend, I still get the occaisonal text/im/call/message/wall post from them, and I try and do the same. Because I love, lurve, luff them.

It just gets to the point where I need to ask myself, am I putting way to much effort into a friendship that is pretty much hopeless? And if so, why don't I just let them go? The answer? Simple, I don't like losing people. Therefore when I have a friend that will lean on me whenever I'm available, I'll be there for them even if they can't be there for me as much as I would like them to. I love my friends, and I will always be there for them.

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