I get by with a little help from my friends

Here yee Here yee

2010-08-16T20:49:00.001-07:00

I'm back Bitches

Red Hair

2009-09-20T22:55:00.001-07:00

Soundtrack to my life

2009-09-16T20:37:00.000-07:00

I know I have mentioned this before, BUT I really love love love music. And coincidentally I am the only person in my family that wasn't born musically inclined. Even my mother... YES myyy mother was in a "band" back in high school! Her and her best friend would play gigs around town. My mom rocked the guitar while her friend "white magic" {her wicked cool stage name} would sing. So since I don't have the gift to share my music, I really like to listen to everyone elses. I have found a more profound appreciation for music since its something I long to be good at. See, this one time in elementary school I signed up to play the clarinet. I practiced all the time, and I mean ALL the time. I thought this was it, I was going to grow up to be a clarinet player. Now in reality I was terrible, but I certainly didn't think so. It wasn't until one night while I was playing my little heart out on the couch in the upstairs living room, when my sister screamed that I sounded like a dying duck and begged my mom to make me stop. Since then, I have stuck to listening and exploring different kinds of music. I am a real sucker for live music, no matter who or what kind of performance it is.

ANYWAYS today I was feeling incredibly overwhelmed. I had dedicated my day to homework and laundry. The stress didn't settle in until I realized my school work wasn't really as organized as I had thought. YES all of my classes had their own separate notebook and folder, but my assignments were all separated in their designated notebooks! I needed everything to be in one place. A trip to Barnes and noble was in order...I needed to get organized.

How could I have let this happen? This is my fifth year in college, I should have this down to a T by now. I mean come on, I have my first quiz this Friday.... Let alone my first exam on Monday! Its the the third week of school and I am falling behind already?? AHH I just want it to be overrrr

AND THAT'S WHEN IT HAPPENED...Sweet Disposition by Tender Trap popped into my head....It was actually more like a wake up call. I am NOT behind in school. I do NOT need to stress myself out. Once I buy my handy dandy weekly organizer it will all be there for me to see.

won't stop til it's over
won't stop to surrender

Music is everything...And that is the first song on the soundtrack of my life, I will continue adding songs as my life goes on :)

love love love love love

2009-09-10T21:32:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when I cant sleep I sign onto youtube and listen to music. I am always fascinated by the amount of talent I just stumble upon. Tonight I came across Alex Cornell, he has like 20 cover songs on his account. Now usually I prefer to hear an artists original work, BUT this guy is amazing. I love love love him, and his voice... enjoy :)

This all seems very familiar :)

2009-09-10T11:44:00.000-07:00

I must say its good to be back. Although I am extremely sad that summer is ending I look forward to the fall. Summer is all about relaxation, beaches, bare feet {ew}, stiff drinks, and concerts. I can proudly say that I had my fair share of each this year and I really cant complain.

Now as for fall, it brings crunchy leaves {I adore walking through those}, scarves, light jackets, apple cider, thanksgiving, and cuddling to stay warm :)... Only downside is that school has once again started and I find myself spending countless hours in front of my computer {for my online courses of course}.

So, I am going to start up once again slowly until I start remembering to update with cool things, pretty pictures, sweet music, and funny sayings!

Go see it!

2009-08-22T15:15:00.000-07:00

Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing

2009-06-26T14:44:00.000-07:00

Did I mention I saw transfomers when it came out at midnight the other night??? Oh, I didnt? WELL it was EPIC

"Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing" Optimus Prime

gingers

2009-06-25T13:48:00.000-07:00

I have never been one to be attracted to guys with red hair.... but this guy is just soo cuuute... and he has a dreamy voice as well :) gingers unite!

life is beautiful

2009-06-24T20:32:00.000-07:00

I read this book and cried throughout the entire thing. I can literally remember where I was and who I was with when I finished this book, and cried for about a half hour. I can't wait to see how it was made into a movie, and I am curious to see what they did with the ending :)

"while i'm out chasing my own dreams"

2009-06-24T13:25:00.001-07:00

"love is blind"

2009-06-24T13:01:00.000-07:00

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said, "journeys end in lovers meeting". What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some, quite inexplicably, love fades; for others, love is simply lost"- The Holiday

cause in the daylight anywhere feels like home

2009-06-23T19:39:00.000-07:00

Camp orientation was last weekend and luckily it took place on the one sunny day we have had in weeks. I feel like its the official start to summer! I also have a lot of plans coming up which I am super pumped about! A few things to keep my mind off of other things :)... Right now I am actually on my way to the midnight showing of Transformers!! WOOO {total nerd, and I LOVE IT}

Soo yeaaa sun please come out... I miss you.... and I miss wearing my sunglasses that make me look like a bug... I miss driving will all my windows down with usic blaring...running barefoot outside {without having to worry about all the mud and puddles}... I EVEN miss the smell of sunscreen. Hopefully with camp will come sunshine and weekends at Cape Cod :)

here's a good song :)

Away we Go

2009-06-22T18:19:00.000-07:00

I went to see Away we Go tonight. And the one thing that I really really loved was the music used. Most of the songs were by Alexi Murdoch, and amazingly beautiful. This thursday when I get paid, I am buying the album :)

I run to you

2009-06-17T18:30:00.000-07:00

What is it about guys that ignore and treat girls, ladies, and women like crap? More importantly WHY do I always seem to be interested in them?? Does that even make sense?? I sure hope not. Anyways I was talking to a friend who let me in on a little secret, he said all a guy has to do is ignore a girl, and she will be crazy for him. Immediately I dismissed his little insight on women until it got me thinking. I think {scared to admit it} he's right.

I feel like I can count several missed opportunities on my part, because I was too busy obsessing over a guy who was either a dick or really wanted nothing to do with me. It's almost like I am drawn to the guys that drive me crazy, I am used to the feeling of insanity. What I really need is for a nice guy to come along, shake me, and tell me "Nice guys are the best" or something along those corny lines.

I am done with guys who don't have time for me! WOO

Such a random ramble I know {I did just rent he's just not that into you}

anyoo I leave you with a song that I have literally had in my head for days...I catch myself singing it all the time!

perfect

2009-06-15T17:23:00.000-07:00

I'm all for moderation

2009-06-14T22:54:00.000-07:00

It's been a while...

2009-05-31T22:40:00.000-07:00

Summer has officially begun and I am in the process of finding a third job {yes, third job}. Anyhoo I will officially begin blogging again this week! Exciting, i know :)

"your life is so random" {a good friend of mine talking about my life}

2009-04-22T21:14:00.001-07:00

I know I know, I have really been slacking lately when it comes to blogging. I signed on today with my intentions of sharing the adventures of kitty (myself), because sometimes I think my life would make a pretty funny reality show.

For example, last Friday I went to pick up a new pair of glasses, I got lost trying to find the high way when I realized my gas light was on. By the time I found a gas station I was pretty much all out of gas and all I had on me was my bank card. I saw a sign that they accepted Visa, so I was in the clear. I asked for five dollars regular, and the man who barely spoke english complied. Once he was done pumping the gas I handed him my card, he then began shaking hid head and tried explaining that there was a fifteen dollar minimum for cards and that It's ok, he would just put ten more dollars of gas in. Embarrassed, I tried explaining that that wasn't possible, since I only had seven dollars in my account, and that I would be getting paid the next morning. Lets just say he was not happy, and I had no cash on me. He told me to wait while he continued to help the rest of the customers. I felt foolish just sitting there, I started to become paranoid as I noticed other customers shooting me glances through their windows. After what felt like an eternity {but really was like fifteen minutes} he told me I was free to go. Free to go? Just like that? Why the hell did he make me sit and suffer? Did he know I would over think the situation and stress myself out by being paranoid? WHAT? Unsure of what really just happened I pulled out of the privately owned gas station in search for the highway. About thirty seconds into driving down the road, I see a sign for the highway {finally} and a mobil gas station {where it is totally acceptable to put five dollars of gas on a debit card} fml.

a ramble of an update :)

2009-04-08T19:32:00.000-07:00

Wow I have no been on here in a while! I have seriously been sooo busy ever since spring break... Soo here is a quick update. After Spring break and midterms I basically was just keeping up with my homework and working. I did see Lady Gaga {I had an asthma attack while watching the concert squished in the third row}.... I didn't have my inhaler on my obvi, so after I caught my breath I spent the remainder of the concert safe on a balcony with dangaa.

And then this past weekend was my schools spring dance, Senate Banquet. It was a lot of fun! We danced the night away all dressed up and did our best to dodge the vom on the dance floor from all the silly little freshman. After the dance our on campus bar was offering free food! I ate a hot dog {so not classy} aaaand of course spilled ketchup all over my new purple dress.....{shouldn't have had the dog}.

Tomorrow I am heading back out to school for a girls night out before Easter weekend! I think I might even stop after work and get a new shirt.... because I just feel like a new shirt is needed for this long awaited girls night out dancing!

I know I mentioned a while back that I wanted to start the Twilight books. Well I am now on book number three and I have become one of those girls who are madly in love with Edward. I have a hard time putting the book down! It's truly making me crazy haha

Here is a beautiful dance that I had seen a while back on so you think you can dance. It is absolutely amazing, but when I look back at it now, it makes me think of Edward and Bella... read the books and you will know exactly what I mean. {I warned you, Twilight is taking over my life}

I found a reason

2009-03-20T21:36:00.000-07:00

I love love love this song. It's perfectly short and sweet. I am actually also in the middle of choreographing a dance for it. {and when I say middle I really mean I only have the first thirty seconds done}. To most people thirty seconds means nothing, but to a dancer 30 seconds is 30 different steps or moves, its actually a good little chunk of choreography. It took me two and a half hours to get that far! And it is really pretty so far {if I do say so myself}. The style is a mix between ballet and contemporary, although I have no training in contemporary its coming out quite nice :). Its a good thing I have sixteen years of dance experience behind me! Anyhoo I plan on recording the dance once it is finished and wonderful, so I will be sure to share it!

Forgoe the Parable

2009-03-20T11:19:00.000-07:00

Love these guys... Spontaneous a cappella version of "For Emma" in a Paris hallway

I hope it's gonna make you notice someone like me

2009-03-19T21:26:00.000-07:00

Happy Saint Patrick's Day! :)

2009-03-17T08:51:00.001-07:00

I love love love this holiday! On Sunday we had all the cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents over for a traditional boiled dinner! YUM! It was a wonderful time {sneaking beers to the underage sisters} :)

And now tonight I'm heading in town for the official Saint Patties day celebration. I just need to find a nice green shirt to match my red hair! :)

Random Ramble

2009-03-16T20:51:00.000-07:00

So technically I am on spring break. Unfortunately I am not somewhere warm laying on the beach soaking up the sun, I am sitting in C-town with the sisters trying to keep busy. For the past few weeks I haven't had any trouble getting called for work. I kept busy with work and homework. BUT now, this week when I have no homework or studying to do, I don't get called for work. This just makes it much harder for me to stay in and save money. Cuz if I have the time, I am going to spend the money.... not good.

So my sister found this Youtube account that uploaded several of the the Disney classics and in high definition! I find this very exciting {wicked lame} and I am in the middle of watching Cinderella right now! So Precious. http://www.youtube.com/user/di5n33 {check out her site if you ever find yourself looking to watch a Disney classic!}

AND tomorrow is Saint Patrick's Day! I am super excited!

{this post was just a mess of a ramble... I blame it on my tiredness and lack of coffee today} The End

2009-03-14T19:15:00.000-07:00

Time is running out

2009-03-11T18:08:00.000-07:00

Time is running out. I have until Friday at midnight to have all my exams and homework done! So far I have gotten all my homework done {yay} and two exams {yay yay}, now all I have left is two midterms {eeeek}. I am a little nervous about these two midterms considering the first tests in both classes were wicked hard. The same professor teaches these two classes, I guess you could say I am just lucky to have him twice...hmmm

Anyhoo I really shouldn't be on here, or dancing around to music, I should be studying! I was just desperate for a break and I am glad I took one. I'm working again tomorrow at the grade school then the middle school on Friday. Then it's spring break! Although I'm not going anywhere warm I plan on relaxing and perhaps even taking a few days off of work. ALSO one of my favorite holidays is over break! St. Patrick's Day! So good to be Irish ;)

ffffound the picture

Mee ohhh myyy

2009-03-09T16:35:00.000-07:00

Last night I went to bed knowing this week was going to be a hectic one. I was scheduled to work all five days, Luce today, Kennedy tomorrow, Galvin Wednesday, Hanson Thursday and Galvin again on Friday. If I were subbing at the high school on friday, instead of the middles school, I would have covered all 5 of the public schools here in town. HECTIC. I like it better when I'm at the same school for a few days. I don't like having different start and end times each day. But there really isnt anything I can do about it.

SO this morning rolls around, my alarm went off at 6:30am to give myself two hours before work. Anyways I decide to close my eyes just for a few extra minutes of sleep, next time I open them its 8am, I now have a half hour to get to work. HECTIC.

I was placed in a kindergarten classroom {for the first time}. The kids were cute as a button, BUT after a full day of basically babysitting 24 kids at the same time as bathroom breaks, math lessons, story time, gym glass, indoor recess, lunch, and circle time; I think I can safely say it was a great experience but I don't see myself doing that everyday. Thank youuu

Did I mention I am working five days, and I have midterms this week?? I have to take the midterms by midnight on friday because technically saturday starts spring break and they must be done by then. I should be reading and studying right now, but instead I just got back from the gym and I felt the need to share my hectic week.

Enough of all the complaining, next week is spring break and St Patricks day, and then the week after that is lady gaga and then the week after that is Senate. SO march will be a fantastic month, I just need to get through this week...OH and it needs to stop snowing, this is getting a little ridiculous.

p.s ffffound it

WHOA

2009-03-07T09:40:00.000-08:00

I'm itching for an adventure

2009-03-05T19:01:00.000-08:00

Spring break is right around the corner {all I need to do is survive three midterms next week...eek}. I am hoping to make it down to Florida, the change in weather would be fantastic! But we will seee. If not I will probably continue to work with the kiddies and read tons of books. {such a nerd} Maybe I will splurge on a tanning package {I know, soo bad, especially with the Irish skin} but I neeed sun, winter is killing me.

Anyhoo I came across this picture on ffffound {click on it, I dare you, you might find pictures you love} and now it is currently the background of my computer. I am itching for an adventure small or big, near or far. I just want to get into my car and drive, perhaps get lost. But really getting lost is all part of the adventure, see new places, meet new faces, and eventually get to where you were going. This summer I am really hoping to take a cross country trip {before camp starts of course}, my friend and I are talking about taking the trip after she graduates! How exciting is that?? It would be such a blast! I have even started saving for the adventure/trip {on top of my shiiit lately}.

But as for now perhaps I will take a trip up north to visit mle... or out west to the westies. What I really want to do it backpack through Europe AND someday I will. Just like my mom did when she graduated college...bamf

For after I graduate, I have even been looking into World Teach, an organization that stations people in other countries to teach children. That would be an amazing adventure AND I would be teaching kiddies all at the same time {of course its also a resume builder like mother says, because I should be looking towards the future... blah blah blah... I say ADVENTURE!}

Remember...

2009-03-05T18:56:00.000-08:00

ffffound it

Neato, book nerd

2009-03-03T20:38:00.000-08:00

Ok, so some time ago I talked about books and reading and bookcases. I would like to retouch on that topic simply because I found this picture. I had said I wanted to buy a cute bookcase to shelve all of my books I have bought or received over the years. Usually when I am interested in reading a certain book I try and purchase it rather than borrowing it from a friend of the library, because like I said, one day I want a bookcase with all my books on it.

Speaking of books and reading. Today I was a seventh grade reading teacher. I had brought my textbooks with me to being studying {since I have all my midterms next week, yuck} but instead I was so intrigued by all the books she had on her bookcase. Yes most of the books are intended for middle schoolers, and there were even a few on the shelf I myself had read back in the day. Then I came across this book I had remembered hearing about last May when I was subbing at the middle school. At the time it was THE book to read. It called Star Girl.

So now first period has begun, I have given the kids their assignment and they are quietly working. I became lost in this book, before I knew it each class was flashing by. Star girl just wanted to be who she was, she didn't want to fit in like everyone else. She didn't even notice that she was "different" from "everyone". Leo fell in love with who she was a star girl... blah blah blah... I could go on and on about what happened. Anyways I couldn't put the book down and I finished it by last period. Yes it was only 180 pages. But I enjoyed my day!

AND lastly, I have decided to follow the crowd and begin the Twilight series. I refuse to see any of the movies before I read the books. A good friend started the first one on a whim, couldn't put it down and now a week later she is moving onto the third book. I am pretty excited about it.... i will let you know how it goes.

Snow Snow melt awayyy

2009-03-02T21:06:00.000-08:00

I would really really like spring to begin :)

ffffound

40 days and 40 nights

2009-02-25T21:48:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I didn't go get my ashes today. But every year for lent I give something up, I make a sacrifice. Last year I gave up Facebook and it was incredibly difficult, but that's all part of making a sacrifice right? Well this year I have decided to make myself healthier. So for the next 40 days and 40 nights I will give up junk food, fast food, unneeded snacking, and I will force myself to the gym even when I don't have the slightest desire to to so.

Many people are no longer followers or don't participate in the Lenten season. But I find it very interesting to be a part of something so big and unknown.

image via ffffound

Life is Messy

2009-02-25T21:19:00.000-08:00

Life is messy, but I wouldn't want it any other way. Yes there are times I complain of how complicated life is or at times how unfair it is. But would I really want to live a boring life where everything was easy and planned out? No way. I look back and realize overcoming life's obstacles build character.

Life is also too short for regret. Shit happens, move on, learn from it, laugh about it. Just don't dwell in the could have beens and should have beens. You will realize life will pass you by while your too busy complaining or worrying. Life is messy and I wouldn't want it any other way.

{picture via ffffound}

I like these sayings

2009-02-25T21:14:00.000-08:00

Are you afraid of the dark?

2009-02-23T19:59:00.000-08:00

I am scared of pretty much everything {that is if it catches me off guard, or I am alone in the dark}. I have been this way as long as I can remember. Like this one time when i was little, I was terrified of bees. I was outside watching my dad practice his golf swing {luckily he was doing so in front of the camera so he could see what he was doing wrong}. ANYWAYS while I was watching him swing the golf club, a bee flew straight at my head and got stuck in my hair. Now you can only imagine the terror that came across my face and screaming from my lungs. I was frantic, running back and forth in the yard screaming as if I were being murdered. My dad was chasing me to find out what was wrong, because how was he supposed to know there was a bee in my hair {keep in mind the camera is still rolling}. Finally the bee gets free and I go back to hanging out in the back yard.

The fear I experience is pretty intense and it is all in my head. For example, the dark. I dont like it. It scares me. Luckily when I come upstairs after watching TV at night there is a light switch at the bottom of the stairs that I turn on, when I get to the top there is a switch to turn the previous light off and another switch to turn the next one on. When I get to the top of the next flight of stairs there is a switch to turn the previous one off and another to turn the hall light on. When I get to the end of the hallway, I reach into my room and turn on my light, and then reach out into the hallway and turn that one off. LUCKILY I don't have to walk one step in the darkness UNTIL it is time for bed. At this point I turn off the light in the room and as quickly as I can jump into bed. I jump just in case there is something under my bed... crazy I know... but I am just making sure haha

So I am a scardy cat. I'm jumpy, if you pop out from behind a corner I will scream bloody murder. If you scare me in the dark, I might just pee my pants. You won't find me at a haunted mansion {the last two I went to, I never made it inside} or a scary movie. If my friends do convince me to see a scary movie you probably won't see my face because they will constantly be covered by my hands.

BOO.. image via ffffound

2009-02-23T19:47:00.000-08:00

HA! Image via ffffound

Some are Silver, and the Others Gold

2009-02-22T20:58:00.000-08:00

This past weekend I visited friends from school. The best is when it's like nothing has changed, or no time has passed. You still talk, laugh, and appreciate the friendship the same way. Because really, what has changed? Friends are Friends. Yes it takes an effort from both side, but what makes people give up on each other?

I guess you could say its something I think about often, probably too often. I hate when good fiends fight to the point of hatred. We are often stubborn when it comes to wanting to prove that we are right when you tell us we are wrong. And when you hurt us our initial want or reaction is to hurt you back. And who better to really hurt you, but a close friend who knows you, knows what gets under your skin? It sucks. It's also weird to think how close people can be at one point and how fast that friendship can be something of the past. What do I do now? Do I wait and see if they come around? Do I become persistent in finding out the real cause to these changes. I don't understand it. I am just going to leave it at... it saddens me to see some friends get up and walk away.

I am not claiming I am perfect here. I will be the first to tell you I'm not. I have just gotten to the point where I feel I am trying to hard. Putting too much of an effort into some sided friendships. You can't sit on a see saw with someone who expects you to do all the work. That just doesn't happen.

picture from ffffound

I leave you with lyrics to the song Make New Friends. It has been stuck in my head all day. I would sing along to the lyrics when I was a kiddie, and it's interesting to go back and read the lyrics today. I see them differently than I did then.

Make new friends,
but keep the old.
One is silver,
the other is gold.

A circle is round,
it has no end.
That's how long,
I will be your friend.

A fire burns bright,
it warms the heart.
We've been friends,
from the very start.

You have one hand,
I have the other.
Put them together,
We have each other.

Silver is precious,
Gold is too.
I am precious,
and so are you.

You help me,
and I'll help you
and together
we will see it through.

The sky is blue
The Earth is green
I can help
to keep it clean

Across the land
Across the sea
Friends forever
We will always be

Can't pull me down

2009-02-17T20:39:00.000-08:00

I came across this picture on my daily visit to ffffound

I used to let people take me down. I would get caught up in their troubles. Times have changed. I am above it all and lovin life. You won't take me down with you.

Valentine's Day

2009-02-14T22:08:00.000-08:00

It's Valentines day weekend! On Friday I did my best to be festive for the kiddies at school. I wore a fun red shirt and spent twelve dollars on heart shaped Lollies {I spent 12 even though I could have gotten the same amount for 9, because I knew I would want some as well, gotta get the good stuff}. The only catch was they needed to be good listeners and get their work done. All but one class accomplished this goal {second to last period was soooo bad and loud, neighboring teachers called the principal!}. They didn't get lollies.

Anyhoooo today my two gf's were home from school for the long weekend. We ordered in some sandwiches and salads, drank tea, had delicious chocolate covered strawberries {thanks to chachis bf whom mle calls the best boy friend everrrrr}, made some videos on facebook {hahaha pretty priceless} aaaand swapped music. We literally laughed till we shed tears {or in mles case, till she almost peed her pants}.

Although I can't say I enjoyed one of those "traditional" Valentines days, I looooved mine!

Things you look at Change

2009-02-12T19:17:00.000-08:00

Thursday night is finally here. A night most college kids look forward to during the week. I myself used to look forward to Thursday nights, a chance to let go and break free from all the work and stress. But now that I am no longer living on campus Thursday nights are just one night closer to the weekend. Once I get home from work I'm exhausted, I will get some homework done before I am dragged to the gym by my super fitness mom {love her, just not her opinion of the gym}. I really would love a nap somewhere in there, but sometimes there just isn't enough time.

I do miss going out with everyone back at school, but I love where I am right now. Yes, I am still taking classes for a miserable major that I don't particularly like, but I am also subbing and doing other things that I enjoy. It has also been such an eye opening experience {living away from my friends} for a few different reasons. I feel I have time to breath. I have a history of taking on everyones problems and drama and making them my own. Don't get me wrong, I am always here to listen to a friend in need. The problem was I would begin to stress about these issues instead of lending an ear and simply giving advice. But, I am getting much better at this.

In the beginning I guess you could say I was smothering/stalking my friends. I had missed them dearly and did everything I could to keep in contact and updated in their lives. But it gets to a point where you realize how one sided some of these friendships really are. Of course there is the select handful that I would never second guess as a friend, I still get the occaisonal text/im/call/message/wall post from them, and I try and do the same. Because I love, lurve, luff them.

It just gets to the point where I need to ask myself, am I putting way to much effort into a friendship that is pretty much hopeless? And if so, why don't I just let them go? The answer? Simple, I don't like losing people. Therefore when I have a friend that will lean on me whenever I'm available, I'll be there for them even if they can't be there for me as much as I would like them to. I love my friends, and I will always be there for them.

Like the picture?

That's a Lie, I have plenty

2009-02-10T18:38:00.000-08:00

Today was great. I was scheduled to sub for teachers who needed to attend a meeting during school. The meeting was then canceled and I was thrown into a random first grade classroom to "help out" till lunch time. I had a blast. First graders are just the cutest. They were soo fascinated by me and my presence. When it came time to get their math problems checked by the teacher, they no longer accepted her answers, they wanted mine. I felt like I was their new queen, they worshiped me.

After lunch I was shipped out to another elementary school in town. The Hanson {not a fan}, here I taught math to second graders for an hour, we talked about the idea of making an estimation. From there, I became the chapter one special ed reading teacher. I had a total of four kids in the class and we just worked on getting the main ideas out of a short story.

So in any case, my day was busy. I came home and started some homework when I realized my days are not well planned out. I make a plan every morning, but that takes up so much time and I will often forget what I had planned when the day gets away from me. SO I decided to venture out and buy a monthly planner to get organized. Now I would like a monthly planner that has Monthly pages {where I can keep track of my subbing days and places} and weekly pages {where I can keep track of my homework assignments and tests}. I didn't think this was too large of a request until I had gone through FIVE stores, and from every one, left empty handed.

Now I remember seeing a plethora of agendas and monthly planners around December and January in every store from Barnes and Noble to CVS. So today when I went to two different hallmark stores, marshalls, cvs, walgreens, and staples and couldnt find anything I was baffled. WHHYYY are they mostly in stores when the year begins?? Monthly planners are generally used for the entire year, but you can only buy them when the year begins? Well, I wasn't feeling very organized in January, does this mean I must wait till next year?? Inconceivable.

This picture is soooo me right?

Live for pleasure

2009-02-08T20:22:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I didn't have to work today, and I have the day off tomorrow, but I still really like this picture. Do the things you enjoy. Live for happiness. :)

By George I think she's got it!

2009-02-05T12:34:00.000-08:00

Today was the day! It finally hit me like a ton of bricks. I have never felt soo alive and sure of myself at the same time. This may all sound completely corny but its exactly how I feel.

Today I was a sub at the JFK elementary school as an aid. I was assigned one to two different kids a period and helped them accomplish the in-class assignments at the same speed as their peers. There was also a time of the day where I was needed to cover one of the third grade classrooms for math and computers. This was a blast! Not only do I love math {total nerd} but I was able to teach the kids how to solve problems. This may sound unbearable to most, but to me, its amazing.

The kids all in all were great! Of course there are the few who think they can out smart the sub, but once you warm up to them they understand you are simply here to help.

Anyways after walking to the parking lot with the principal who welcomed me and thanked me for my help, I explained to him I loved doing it and it really was no trouble. I came home, made some tea, and realized I was simply ecstatic. I was so happy and knew this was exactly what I wanted to do for most of my adult life. {notice I said most, because I still want to travel and live in NYC} Just because I realized what I want to be doesn't mean I will give up on the rest of my dreams.

So here it is, after I graduate from WSC with my Business Major and commercial and recreational tourism Minor I will move to NYC, work for a business of some sort, make sure there is a lot of traveling done within the company. Then either come back to these parts or stay out there, get my masters in Education and Teach! Of course I would also love to get a place on CC where I can spend my summers off.

Who knows, I might end up getting my masters first, or traveling first. Either way, I now know the direction of where I want my life to be going. This is HUGE for me... In the past I was just playing around with the idea of teaching, or maybe nursing, or maybe the peace corps. I was lost, but now I have some dreams and goals and I am going to stick to em!

p.s this is a lovely polaroid I found at ffffound.com... love it

Cold...not so hot

2009-02-04T16:43:00.000-08:00

I have come down with some sort of terrible cold/flu combination. I have been on my couch laying low as the cough and stuffy nose take over my life. I was obviously unable to work {I don't want the kiddies getting sick} and therefore watched old movies and reruns on hulu pretty much all day.

Chicken noodle soup, green tea, and ginger ale were the staples to my cold/flu diet. Not so much fun.

Interesting Weekend

2009-02-02T18:44:00.000-08:00

This weekend was fun, interesting, wild, and of course dramatic. I was visiting friends, letting loose and having a good time. We gossiped over long breakfasts and dinners at the DC. Laughed until we literally shed tears, and drank until we had forgotten all our troubles.

Don't get me wrong, I had a wonderful time. It was just at times I felt things get a little out of hand {ok not just a little, a lot}. But thats me! I am super dramatic and I just can't help it.

So what was so dramatic? Nothing really, it was more that little things were blown out of proportion, therefore making it a big thing. One example was a boy {we all know boys are stupid} but I may have been a tad bit dramatic about it {ok, I was really dramatic}. And then a tiff with a friend, which I honestly have no idea what really happened {but we are still friends right? HA}. Oh did I mention my car got towed? Yes, that was interesting.

I was walking towards my car to drive home when I noticed from a distance that it was strangely getting higher and higher off the ground. After pleading with the wsc police {they have cold hearts} I had to pay over 200 dollars to get it back. Now that is something that deserves a dramatic retelling! So thats just what I did.

Anyways it was a good weekend over all! I had a blast! Some of the best partying and stories we have had so far. :)

These are a few of my favorite things...

2009-01-30T04:57:00.000-08:00

Now I know my ABC's

2009-01-29T19:25:00.000-08:00

I want a Polaroid Camera

2009-01-29T19:23:00.000-08:00

I really wish for a Polaroid camera, but for now I'd settle for this t-shirt!

Sea of opportunities

2009-01-28T08:35:00.000-08:00

OK, so now that I am home and substitute teaching in C-town {where word travels fast} I have been asked by several people what I want to do once I graduate. Understandably they figure I am in school for teaching, which then to their surprise I'm not. I then get this confused look on their faces and the question "well then {pause}, why are you substitute teaching? Wouldn't you rather get a job pertaining to your major?" I pause and smile {to make it seem like I know what I'm about to say} and then usually respond by saying "Well my major may be business but I have put a lot of thought into getting my masters in education and using the math background I was given by majoring in Business and teach middle school Math, plus I love working with kids." TA DA! This usually makes them smile and leave me alone. Well done.

The truth is I have no idea what I want to do once I graduate. But I don't really wanna worry about that right now. All I know is I have dreams and aspirations and I wish to accomplish them all. Here are just a few {in no particular order} live in NYC, own a hotel, be a teacher, raise a family, get married, be happy, travel, own a vacation home, etc.

So now the picture, I found it on ffffound.com and immediately loved it. I feel as though sometimes I can relate to it with some aspects of my life. I see the great big world of opportunity out there, but I'm scared, I would rather just kinda hang out in the environment I am most comfortable in. Someday I will be out there in the big open sea with the rest of the fishies, but for now, until i decide where I am going and what I will be doing, I am comfortable with just doing what I know.

Love my littlest Sister

2009-01-26T21:05:00.001-08:00

Maggie has now joined with her two other sisters sarah, and liz to donate her hair for locks of love. She is the bravest little girl and I love her so much! Here are some pictures of my little sister Maggie getting her braid cut off!
I love love love her new do! Hugs and kisses Mag xoxo

I neeeeed to see this

2009-01-26T18:41:00.000-08:00

ha!

2009-01-25T19:04:00.000-08:00

Be a Lamp

2009-01-22T18:41:00.000-08:00

So its official, I start subbing tomorrow! I am super excited. I subbed a bit last year in May when I had returned from school. I was mostly positioned at the middle school with a few times at the elementary schools. I must say I LOVED the middle school {yes, they are at that incredibly awkward age where they think they know everything, but I found it so fun}.

So tomorrow I am subbing in for the middle school gym teacher hahaha. I get to wear sneakers and spandex {love spandex}. I also love that I get to dress comfortably while playing games all day and getting paid to do so. Super cool.

OH and more good news! I was offered a senior counselor position at the camp I have been working at for the past four summers. A senior position is a pretty big deal! You are in charge of at least 18 girls, 3 junior counselors, 2 senior cit's, and 2 cit's. Thats a lot of girls! I must admit I was super excited when I found out about that as well. The only things holding me back are the pay {its not that great, I really go back every year because of the fun staff and I love camp}, and also I need to stat looking for somewhere to live next year while at school and most of the rents I've seen begin in the summer. Anyhoo, I am gonna sleep on that for a few days before I make a decision. I won't let it stress me out.

Gosh, I get sooo excited when it comes to subbing and camp, its a really good thing I went to school for education right??? But really, I can always go back and get my masters in education after getting this Business degree.

Ok, so this picture I came across on holga tumblr and I really liked it. I think I try to live my life according to this picture {well, I try at least}. I love to help people. :)

Just let it go and enjoy the show!

2009-01-22T10:08:00.000-08:00

Keep Warm

2009-01-22T09:08:00.000-08:00

I really do miss the amount of heat that was always pumping through new hall {I was able to prance around in shorts and a t-shirt}. Here at home, the heat sadly does not rise about 60 degrees.

I find myself bundled in several layers throughout the day and even wrapped in scarves while sleeping.

I came across this picture on ffffound.com, its a tree with a lovely sweater! Love it. Who says trees don't get cold?

I promise

2009-01-22T08:38:00.000-08:00

Oh love... very precious
:)

Books!

2009-01-21T15:33:00.000-08:00

So I am currently in the middle of reading three books, On the Road, Jane Eyre, and Naked. All three are pretty great and I really like them.

Now speaking of books, just a few minutes ago I looked up all of my business textbooks I will be needing for this semester {my mouth dropped open wide when I saw how much money I would be spending}. So far, it is a total of 465 dollars for Marketing Management, Business Management, and Advertising! I don't even know how much my accounting book is yet!

Ew. Gross. I really wish I was still working at the library so that I could take a textbook out for the full semester {totally not allowed} and just keep renewing it without anyone noticing. Also, I always had first dibs on books left on reserve... and I KNOW my accounting book is on reserve... damn

It doesn't help that I am currently broke and have yet to be called to sub. But, I must say I do thoroughly enjoy my relaxing days that consist of starbucks, magazines, tea, and online homework. {If I don't get a job though my mom wants me to work at the hospital with her}. I love my mom, shes great, we are close. But I don't think if I could handle 24/7 momma g time.

Anyhoo I found this picture on ffffound.com {i know, I have an addiction to the pictures of art} and I loved it. I love books, I love reading {nerd I know} but I just can't help it. I have started to collect all the books I have and I plan on buying a cute bookcase to put them all in. I cant wait! {again, nerd, I know}

The only people for me

2009-01-21T15:30:00.000-08:00

"...the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..."

This freaks me out!

2009-01-21T15:25:00.000-08:00

Look at this picture... doesn't it look like the ovals are moving?? Ok, then make your eyes completely still and focus in one one oval... Its not moving! I literally stared at this picture for so long trying to figure it out.

Dinner at home

2009-01-20T20:21:00.000-08:00

For Dinner. Sliced celery sticks with hummus and a handful of mixed nuts for dessert.... Oh and a few cups of green tea.....

Can somebody please get me a burger?!?!

I love to laugh long and loud and clear

2009-01-20T17:09:00.000-08:00

A few good pictures {that make me laugh} I came across on either ffffound.com or holga tumblr...oh wait that last one is ze sister that she deleted off of facebook {not before I saved it to my computer}... it makes me laugh soo hard it literally hurts

P.S name the movie from which I took the title of this post from

Gingers

2009-01-20T15:16:00.000-08:00

Be nice to gingers, they usually grow up having an incredibly awkward childhood.
I would know
:)

President Obama!

2009-01-20T11:07:00.000-08:00

So I just finished watching the inauguration and I must say it was pretty amazing!

I wish I could have been there with the millions of other patriotic Americans {including my sister} just to experience the energy. But sitting at home with a nice cup of tea and my warm blanket was kind of exciting as well.

I found Obama's eighteen minute speech to be inspiring, and even found myself getting a tad bit emotional during the singing of the national anthem! {what a softy}

Anyhoo I got all my classes straightened away today, very accomplishing. Now I just have to figure out my bedroom situation because my room is currently being used for storage and laundry and I am forced to sleep on the couch.

an online ramble

2009-01-18T11:57:00.000-08:00

Sooo this semester I will officially be an online student. My classes will all be taken online and I will be living at home.

I will miss being on campus with the rest of the fighting owls {yes, our mascot is the fighting owls}. But I will have the opportunity to work during the day and make some money. {I am currently worth nothing}.

Anyhoo I saw this picture on ffffound.com and immediately started laughing, I literally couldn't breathe! I think Nester {the official fighting owl} is sad to see me go.

Some of the things I will be missing are my intramural soccer team that I have been on with the same girls since freshman year, coed softball with my bests, performing in Vagina Monologues with DANGAA, being the business manager of the paper, Tuesdays at Tommy D's, running back and forth across the hall to the guys apt, senate banquet {but don't worry, I'm going as someones date}, and i suppose working at the Library....

Of course I will be on campus now and again to meet with my professors for the online classes once a month I think it is, buy books, and to obviously visit and hang out with my bests.

I plan on being a Substitute teacher! I am really excited....its a good thing I am going to school for business management right?? haha

Anyhoo I am off to run errands with my sister before I drive her back to campus tomorrow

ta ta for now :)

Truth

2009-01-17T21:07:00.000-08:00

If I had seen this man I would have given him the 98cents. Doesn't he look like hes telling the truth?

Change.

2009-01-17T21:01:00.000-08:00

Change. Its all we really hear about these days. Especially with president elect Obama about to be sworn in this coming week. I myself am pretty excited to see all these new changes promised, and look forward to the future!

2009-01-16T13:30:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Ahhhh-Ahhh, the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oh, I'm finding
That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside
You're my protection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence..
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
'Cause I won't remember, save your breath 'cause what's the use?

Ahhhh-Ahhh, the night is calling
And it whispers to me softly, "come and play"
I am falling
And if I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down,
Spinnin' round, spinnin' round, spinnin' round
Looking for myself,
Sober
Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down,
Spinnin' round, spinnin' round, spinnin' round
Looking for myself,
Sober

When it's good, then it's good
It's all good 'till it goes bad
'Till you try to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, never again!
Broken down in agony
Just trying to find a friend
Ohhh

Whoahhh

I'm safe up high,
Nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party's over?
Whoahhh
No pain inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Whoahhh

I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
Why do I feel this party's over?
Why do I feel this party's over?
Whoahhh
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Some things are not Important

2009-01-16T08:43:00.000-08:00

I think I have an issue with caring too much about certain things that really end up causing more stress in my life. I take a lot of time worrying about others and whats going on in their lives rather than focusing on myself.

My sister never fails to remind me that I worry waaaay to much about pointless things. She simply makes a crinkled face whenever I ask her what shes doing or where shes going or what shes making, and then draws out my name with a little frustration behind it.... for example.. Caaaatherrrinnneee ugghhh. And then I remember I need to relax and worry about myself. But I just can't help it. I have an urge to simply know everything. Maybe you could call it curiosity? My mother calls it being super nosy. But I don't do it on purpose, promise!

Another thing I think I spend to much time on is what people think about me. I have recently come to accept the fact that I am a proud person... buut I would like to be able go on without constantly worrying what others think of me. I put immense amounts of pressure on myself in situations to make sure my integrity is in tact. Frustrating i know... anyhoo these pictures are again from fffound.com.... till next time

The future?

2009-01-15T21:29:00.000-08:00

I love this picture.... of course I came across it on ffffound.com. In most circumstances I would totally agree with this, because over thinking everything I do is something I suffer from {yes, over thinking situations makes you suffer}. But right now, or recently, I am more worried about what is going to happen tomorrow.

Of course I know I will be around tomorrow, but I catch myself worrying way to much about the future. Even yesterday I was seriously considering changing majors! I should be graduating in the near future and I was thinking of changing from business to nursing!!! Its not even like I would have many classes that would transfer.... aka I would be in school for probably another two or three years, unless I took part in an accelerated course. AND then there is another part of me that wants to be a teacher, but holly insists I get my bachelors in business at westfield {yuck} and then just get my masters in education.

AND LASTLY there is that huge part of me that wants to live the next year of my life in a Kerouac style and work my butt off for a few months and then travel the US! There is so much I have never seen or experienced, and I am itching to get out there! {again, I blame colby for suggesting On the Road by Jack Kerouac, because the blame has to be put somewhere right?} haha

So for now I leave you with my thoughts being a little lost and confused. Ultimately I am completely unsure about the future and what it will bring!

2009-01-14T18:18:00.000-08:00

OK so I was going to post today about the book I am reading. The book is called On the Road. And right before I signed into my blog, I decided I would check to see what my sisters blog was about today {just curious}. To my freekin surprise she posted about the book I am reading! She quoted one of the greatest quotes in the book aaaand basically stole my idea... and shes not even reading it! How rude!

Anyhoo you should totally check out On the Road. I was hesitant at first when Colby suggested it, because I had read several reviews and they were all a mix. But the book is amazing and incredibly inspiring!

I guess you could say it is kind of a dangerous book for me to read, because all I want to do now is hit the road and explore! Why am I sitting here?!?! Why aren't I out exploring the world!

So for now I would have liked to leave you with my fave quote from the book, but it looks like my sister has that covered. Instead I will leave you with the suggestion to really let yourself go and read the book. It truly is life changing!

2009-01-13T21:35:00.000-08:00

Something has come up and I am feeling the need to post something as profound as this picture I came across on ffffound.com.

Looking at the picture in a "deep" way, I can say I can relate to it. You never really appreciate anything until it is gone. You constantly abuse what ever the situation may be, until one day, it leaves you high and dry.

Crying wont get you anywhere {although a good cry feels daaaamn good sometimes}.

This is just a bunch of rambles, but thats really all my head is full of right now. Mumble jumble that I can't even recognize, let alone organize.

Until tomorrow I suppose....

2009-01-07T22:15:00.000-08:00

A photo taken in NYC {aka my future home} simply stating I dream of Love. I came across it on ffffound.com, a blog where people post interesting pictures of art they have found on the internet. I can literally sit on the computer for hours browsing the hundreds of beautiful and interesting pictures that are there! I have even started saving the pictures to my computer so that I can go back and look at the ones that really caught my eye, like this one.

Ok, so I was talking to a friend yesterday about our new years resolutions and his is to simply find a girlfriend. It made me think, gee I would love to find a boyfriend for my new years resolution, but then again what if the "man of my dreams" isn't supposed to come into my life until later? Would I be putting unfair amounts of pressure on myself to constantly be on the look out? Or, should I choose the same new years resolution as my friend, and say, I am in pursuit of a boyfriend in the year 2009? I could look at it from The Secrets point of view and say I am summoning the love of my life by using the law of attraction {because I am a semi believer in the secret}.

Anyhoo I feel as though that is to much thought to be put into a new years resolutuon, but then again it could just be because my mind is on constant over drive and I over think every possible thought or idea. So, for now I am going to stick to my vision board and work on bettering myself in the new year, and maybe, just maybe, the man of my dreams will meet the bettered version of me and fall in love.

BUT for now, I will just keep dreaming. :)

2009-01-05T23:11:00.000-08:00

I came across this image on ffffound.com and I loved it. Especially because I am headed for the nations capitol this week.

My two sisters and I are being spontaneous and taking a cheap flight down to explore the many (free) museums that are offered, while squatting at our aunts house in VA.

The Obama's are also already in town! How amazing would it be if I just happened to run into them {obviously thats not going to happen considering hes being inaugurated next week and the amount of secret service that will be around} but I'm just saying... that would be pretty cool!

I am just excited to really explore the nations Capital on my own. I have been there a few times in the past with family and then once with the standard middle school trip.

This trip is spontaneous and adventurous... two things on my vision board ;)

2009-01-05T11:04:00.000-08:00

Shout out....loud

The New Year is HERE

2009-01-05T10:51:00.000-08:00

This years Christmas was a sweet one. Filled with family, friends, delicious food, cheer, laughter, and love. AND we had a white Christmas! I really can't complain.
The New Year has also begun and I must say I have a really good feeling about it. I feel like a lot is going to change for the better, and I am ecstatic about it.
This year I have chosen to make a vision board instead of making one resolution and trying to stick to it. My Vision board is an Idea taken from the book The Secret. On this board are things I would like to accomplish over the next year. Each idea or activity pertains to a different part of my life.
The vision board will hang in my room where I will see it everyday and be reminded to Dance, Believe, beat stress, look Ravishing, feel sexy, dare to try, learn to cook, travel, take pictures, love, smile, laugh, read, beat the odds..... and sooo many more!
Because, I really can do whatever I want. And this year I plan on having fun, bettering myself, and doing the things I love <3

Everyone should make one!

Snowed In

2008-12-19T19:46:00.001-08:00

I am snowed in with my bests. We did the usual, laugh, chat, catch up about boys (or lack there of), swap stories about our drunken escapades from the semester past, and just really enjoyed each others presence. Its a large part of why I love coming home.
We sipped wine (from a disgusting amount of bottles for three people... four, if you include holly's brother), homemade cookies, hand baked pizza, and snacked on hummus and crackers.
By Jonny's request we watched the majority of the Casino, but after he was completely inappropriate and spilled red whine all over the couch and white rug, we decided it was our time to take over the remote and watch a sappy love movie. The Holiday.
Watching the Holiday fills me with the Christmas joy, but at the same time scares me into thinking that I might turn into that pathetic woman who falls in love with someone who will never love me back. Could I stoop that low? Will I ever find the man of my dreams? I sure hope so, but I am starting to think that the constant viewing of all these amazing sappy love movies is setting me up for something much less. We will have to wait and see! :)

Home for break

2008-12-18T20:51:00.000-08:00

Finals are finally over and I am home for Christmas break. I must say, the end of a semester is always bitter sweet for me. I am happy to be done with all classes, and happy to be home with friends and family, but I am always sad to be leaving my friends from school behind. Sooo I will plan silly sleepovers and roadtrips to visit them. I cant wait.
Tomorrow there is a snow storm coming and I couldnt be more excited. I had plans to go to another one of those ugly sweater parties but I think the place I want to be the most is snowed in, baking cookies, laughing, drinking hot coco, and singing along to Christmas music. Now doesnt that just sound idealistic?
Speaking of snow, have you ever really looked really closely at snowflake?? They are amazing! I legit could state at them for hours. When you get really close you can see that they are wonderfully textured and incredibly delicate. I love it. I love the saying no two snowflakes are the same. I luff it. I love it. I lurve it.
Watch the great love movie Annie Hall, its where the great quote "Love is too weak a word for what I feel -- I lurve you, you know, I loave you, I loff you, two F's, yes I have to invent, of course I -- I do, don't you think I do?" came from.
You'll Luff it! <3

2008-12-17T20:24:00.001-08:00

So here it is... my blog. This is where I will post all my witty comments, strange thoughts, judgmental jabs, idiosyncrasies, aaand anything else that really comes to mind! Right now I should be studying for my Labor Relations final, and it would have helped if I hadn't skip so many classes. But there is nothing I can do about that now. Oh well... Instead I will blog, listen to music and curl up to a good movie.
Lastly, here is a good song that I am pretty much obsessed with at the moment.

"I wish you didn't go to bed <3 Cat"